Written by: Dwayne Collins
The mysteries of life are only known to some. Most of us will never know the reasons for time and how it changes from one place to another. Most of us will never know the reasons for the moon to change its patterns in the sky from day to day. Most of us will never know the reasons for the months to change in the number of days and the hours that have been made to be a day. Most of us will never know the reasons why some of us kill, steal, rape, molest and do evil things to good people. Most of us will never know TRUTH and why it is so hard to give it and receive it. We have been sculptured mentally to think a certain way and when those thoughts are interrupted, we listen and look at the ways others live in the acceptance of the corruptions that we live in and we accept it or die trying to change it because we know not how to change it.
The memories of living can be cruel. Many people lived in such harsh realities that their memories have been hidden so deeply inside of them that for no reasons at all, tears begin streaming from their eyes. I remember saying to my Beloved MOTHER that I was starving, when I hadn’t eaten for a long time. She looked at me and said “…you may be hungry but you ain’t never starved.” Then she laid down her powerful Wisdom that stays with me wherever I go.
When I’m counting my Blessings, I think of my MOTHER working in the cotton fields as a little girl. Farming, cooking and cleaning, her and her older sisters, as they received little education. I think of how they made it to produce so many beautiful children. None of us got the best of what life could offer but all of us seemed to make it with what we were given to succeed with. Some of us rebelled and found out what it was like to follow those people who were trying to escape by drinking and drugging and living the lives of those who weren’t able to live according to the rules of corruption. But the lessons were brutal and the education was well worth going through. Some of us will call this learning street knowledge.
I think of some of the places I’ve been and the things I saw that would make most people cringe. Some of the living conditions I’ve been in would bring sickness to most people if they were weak minded or had no will to go on. In situations like this, to keep moving on, you have to know that you have been Blessed with a tremendous amount of strength.
I remember those days of wanting to give up. Those days of struggling just me and my wife, trying just to keep our little family together and how the adversary until this very day is continually trying to tear us apart. Nobody wants to live separated from their family. But there are many of us facing this struggle head on and praying for a Blessing.
I remember the drugs and alcohol that led people into the halls of depression. I remember speaking to people who had not one penny to help get food to eat but somehow got drugs and alcohol to bury their sorrows that continued to rise to the surface daily. Addicts knew the pains of addicts and you could always find somebody willing to give you a place to rest your head and something to get high on for the moment. And as you stand among people who could actually help you, would not help you and allowed themselves to watch as you reached rock bottom. This was told to them to be tough love.
So as the cursed memories try to bring my well-being to sorrow and pain, I look at my present self. I count my Blessings and I appreciate the Greatness of ALMIGHTY GOD, YAHWEH and all the Heavenly Spirits that filled the hearts of those people in my coming up. I am thankful to all those people who were placed in my paths of an early death. I am thankful and so graciously apresye and thamini them for helping me accept opportunity. I say this because there are many people who just give up. You don’t have to go out of this country to see people who have given up on opportunity. They know that opportunity is not coming. There are people who are being highly medicated on drugs that cause them to be attacked by dreadful memories and are being told these drugs help them. Drugs are drugs when their intentions are to alter your mind.
When stress and depression gets you in that place of no hope, don’t use drugs. Hold your head up and allow your eyes to guide you into realization. Your condition, position and stature is always better than someone else. When you have nothing there is someone who has even less. Make yourself thankful for just waking up with a mind to open your eyes, to smell, to taste, to feel or just to be living another day to be able to change your situation.
Just having my wife by my side makes me the wealthiest man in the world. I know that I have more than I have not. HE who gives out Blessings (whether you believe or not) has given them out equally, we only have to accept them. For HIS BLESSING are much more than anything. The technological inventions from rocks and stones are of no comparison to life. Without the Blessing to breathe, of what value is anything else?